I am scared of the future.

Hi all. I've shifted to http://fuckyeahameila.blogspot.com/. The reason for me to shift to a new blog, new archives, new formspring, new entries. And of course, new space for me to type everything out.

I've been using this account ever since im 14 year old, i've moved to a new account. I want to move on, im for real. Im just wondering, when will i have the faith and courage to not cry and continue on with everything that is well planned by god.

Last night i prayed for you, people says "what comes around, goes around". You treated me real badly, nobody can ever imagine the pain i had in me for months. I think i am strong enough to leave this blog, account.

Okay, relink me alright! :-) Tc readers, you guys can follow me on twitter @ Emily_Amelia aye. i love you all, xoxo!

决不让眼泪往下流.

Okay i think i posted this picture before? I doubt so, but i reckon it on the same time too, haha oke whatever. I had a pretty bad day anyway, but i kind off enjoy the day too because i recieve my pay cheque and as usual since yesterday, mr chomel have been making me smile and laugh by texting with me, i appreciate alot ;)

I was late for work today, because i woke up at 8am. For god damn sake, 8am is the time that im suppose to board 961 and head to work, hahaha! I was texting with mr chomel last night, that's why, and i'm a owl that can't fly, haha inside joke ^_^

So ok, im going to sleep early tonight, for real oke. Today's work sucks the most, seriously, i am starting to hate it when i am only disliking. Urgh, its getting on my nerves seriously, fu*k. Okay this is how it goes, i hate him and i swear, if i ever get the chance to get out of the company (insyallah), i'll be god damn fu*king happy!!

And i got my pay today, straight after lunch! Real happy, $480 sey! I can buy my D60 already, fui i suke! After work, headed to Bpp to find Aslina at some resturant. (You know i know la okay Ass.lina ^^) Walked home, sat down alone before heading home. Cried, called Fadhila. And yes, i cried on the phone with her, i was seriously heartbroken and i swear, its another worse day of year 2010..

Im currently webcamming with Sri, msning with Fadhila, Fiq & Woodpecker. I am happy that its friday tomorrow, and yes, im not working on saturday! Gonna stay at home and spend my day on my laptop and ya da ya da! And sunday, going to Nova with mom to shop for our new crib's furniture :) Can't wait.

If you are afraid of the changes that will happen in your life as a result of following your heart, thats natural. Just surrender to the changes , letting them happen. You are following your heart , which means you are finally having the experience your soul desires. This also means that you are getting back on the right path and living your life's purpose. its awkward or scary or like somthing is not right but you cant avoid this stage cause everything need to heal.

Im done. Im going to be happy. Trust me oka. I miss everyone who was once in my life, yes each and everyone of you.

Esp Hazmi & Hairul, how are you 2 doing? Hope to see both of you soon, no matter in coicidentally or planned, i hope you 2 stil remember the day/the part when you said about our forever.

Anw, i don't know why i hate my life, i go work, i face sacarstic words. I go home, tons of rubbishs coming towards me. Fuck, life is fucking bitchy lately, screw it.

K da, im off to sleep. B.y.e

Can't do it, neither will i.

Hello! Selamat malam! So, today was a "ok" day. Boring as ever, but yknow, i don't know why i feel different today, its just something different from other days :/ Okay, i don't know how to explain either, its like... Urgh nevermind lol.

So last night was a very sad night, i cried like one silly fool -.- So managed to sleep after hanging up with Nelson. I think he called at 3.30am? So yeah, he wanted someone's number pretty badly, and luckily i managed to change topic by asking what time is it. Clever me, if not i'll see 2 fattys fighting (lolmao!!!)

So i hung up with him due to he asked me to sleep, and i swear, my eyes are very heavy already, zzz. So i slept, wake up at 7am. Chiong to bath room, bath, had a hard time putting on make up cause my eyes look very shag -__- So went out at 7.45am, took Lrt. 961 was late today, damn shit.

I was late due to the bus, NOT me! :@ Stupid boss still want me to apply 15 mins off due to im late. Somemore unpaid leave, wth right?! -____-" So i bobian, i apply loh. Tsk... Then Lynn came over to my company. Talked to me, and i am so happy. LOL, don't ask why, i won't say it here till its officially over. :)

Had canteen's food again for lunch, i won't get sick of it seriously, hahaha i feel like eating it again tomorrow, lmao! And whenever i eat that, Yingnan & Frediezel will say "SAME FOOD AGAIN?" HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. Managed to do all the service reports by 5pm, but boss was out -,-"

Watched Mama Mia thru Frediezel's iTouch! ^^ Very nice and touching too, went back at 6pm. 961 as usual, reached home at 7.30pm, home, bath, online!

Chatted with Rahmat, Fadhila, Alson, Xiulingaida & Sri. Rahmat left for soccer playing already :( Hahaha anw, ah takpe, i don't wanna type here, nyhehehehe :P Gotta let Gummy, Michelle, Fadhila & Fana know only! :P

Tomorrow is Thursday, soon it will be Friday. I can't wait for weekends, i don't know why? There's no reason too, hahaha wtf -,-" Anw yesterday i met Cheryl for dinner and Tsazkir for some chilling out. Stupid Tsazkir laughed when i was telling him something very serious, lol!!

Okay i am missing somebodeh, die die die. Im hungry too. I only ate lunch for the past 3 days and i swear, im slimming down!! Okay not, i want to slim not im slimming. HAHAHAHAHAH dumb me -,-"

I don't know why is it that when we texts, msn, i feel real happy. This is a hint of crushing on someone, but i swear, i don't know you that well, and i don't see why am i crushing on you, stupid fireman. Quickly text me your dumbo!! Haha, eeeeek, i don't want to crush on you la idiot!

But he is so cute that i can't resist myself to stop looking at his picture. Okay this sentence sounds very sick, hahahah! ^^ But he is fucking cute, damn shit. I gotta control. Mhmmmmmm k la, im chatting with Fadhila now.

Bye!

Selfish girl.

Im on the phone with Fadhila right now, and im currently feeling down too. Went for work, i am fucking sad. seriously. Very sad.

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The look from my eyes tells you that i am strong.

Hello there. I am here to post. Okay i know, you guys are wondering am i okay after posting the previous post. I swear i am absolutely fine, i just really need to cure the ache in me, and move on from him. My heart is in pain anyway, dumb me -,-" Shall drop this topic.

Went out after posting previous post, recieved quite a number of texts from friends making sure i am fine, because they thought i'll go and die or something, lol -,-" So i headed to Clark Quay, guess what?!! I took the wrong purple line, i headed to Boonkeng instead of Clark Quay. So i rushed out of the train at Boonkeng, and the bangla was all staring at me, wtf lol!!

Reached Clark Quay, met Xiuling and Yuee and hugged them! ;D Then we headed to Charles and Keith, then to Starbucks ;D Had Vanilla Latte and Oreo cake :P Then we slacked there and off to Singapore river there. Took pictures (On aida's fb)

Then off at 10.45pm. Reached home before 12am, Yuee went back with me while Aida went alone as she stays at Boonlay with all the bangalas. (AHAHAHA KIDDING :P) So reach home, wash up sleep!

Work today was okay, Selvie is on MC means we gonna have canteen food for lunch. BUT ITS TASTY CAUSE GOT STINGRAY!!!!!! HEHEEE ^^ SO SO SO!! Went back at 6pm sharp. Took 961 as usual, lrt home. Bumped into Alastair, then off to Ying's crib. Slacked awhile, then home.

Online, bath. Webcammed with Aida, and we had so much fun!!! Hahahah, i kept laughing till i cried and not fart! (I know whatcha thinkin Aida!!) So so, im so glad to be able to hear her laughter anyway!! Woman, we are strong, single, sexy. HAHA OK I AM NOT SEXY LOL!!! I LOVE YOU! :P I learnt sign language already, hehee i passed your test hor!!

Hope to see you on Saturday for chilling/lunch with Yuee aye? Heh, andandand!! Remember our deal! SMILE ALWAYS! :D We shall do our own emotions we had just now when we sees each other, gonna laugh our ass out oka!

I love Yuee & Aida for yesterday, seriously. I love this picture the most, rrrrreally!!



Hehe i loike! Thanks you 2 seriously, although last night i was down, you 2 managed to make me laugh by teaching me handsigns! And now! I know how to do already!! ^^ Love you 2, meet up soon okay!!

I may look weak and sad. You may think its impossible for me to move on.
I will prove you right. Yesterday's post, is not everything. There's still
some part, i didn't said it cause i don't want to hurt you, me, everyone.
Imma make use of the 3 weeks holiday to move on from you. :)

I love you alot, but hey, i gotta go cause you don't know how to treat me.
I must be happy no matter whutttttt, k la bye!! :D

thanks to those who cared. i appreciate it alot, when i saw tags on my tagbox, i cried because i was so touched. you guys make me felt better, i appreciate and thanks, each and one of you no matter on my blog, msn, facebook, twitter or on the phone. i love you all so much! Esp: FADHILA & MICHELLE YAP!!!!

Fuck you idiot, you are so heartless.

I am seriousy disappointed. I heard from people that you said i was irritating? Fuck yourself md hairul. Im fucking pissed with you. Do you want me to post everything what you did behind me? Or should i ask my readers, are they curious about us? Are they curious why is it that i can't let go and why you can easily forget me?

Well yes they do, and im going to post everything out now. I won't even fucking care how will people think of you, hate me, curse me, whatever it is, you deserve it fucker, because what you did me to me is much hurtful.

You know i broke up with Hazmi, you came close to me. We lepaked, we had fun, you send me home, you text me. On 12th Nov, we confessed and you asked for stead. I agreed. You were so fucking sweet when we first got together. People calls it honeymoon period. You meets me everyday, making sure im happy and making sure im alright. I must say, you're the best boyfriend. And i will always remember that you woke up as early as 7am to book my 16th bbq pit for me @ Bangkit when Iskandar didn't booked it. You are always calling me at night, making me laugh and making sure im speaking perfect english without singlish in it. If i were to speak 1 singlish word, i'll owe you a kiss. And i'll always speak singlish on purpose cause i know i want to kiss you and i know you love it.

When you started working, we always meet up in the morning at 9.45am and we'll spend time together before you goes to work with Rashidi. I love it when we spends time, seriously. During your off days, we will always meet up with Gummy, Iskandar & Ilham to lepak together. And of course, you'll meet me before we meets them. I was seriously fucking in love with you very much, super much x10000000000000000000! (words can't explain how much i love you, really!)

So just weeks after you started working, you told me that there was girls having a crush on you. One of the girl's name was Rena. And there was once i was at town, i went to Paragon with Fana to look for you. And you know what you did?! You actually walked away from me to say Hi to Rena! At first i felt its nothing because you 2 are working mates and its very very common to say Hi. So you even said this..

Your hand was over my shoulder*

You: That girl cute right? *points to rena.*
Me: Uhuh, yeah. *smile*
You: Yes, and she is cuter than you. *smiles widely.*
Me: Ya... *look away and turn to Fana with eyes turning red*
Fana: Tsk... *look at me and ayun angrily*
Ayun: Are you going home now? I send you till the main entrance then.

So we walked there, we didn't talked, when i was out of Paragon, i cried. I really cried, Fana was pissed with you, i ain't pissed, i was disappointed at myself for being ugly. And i was really heartbroken when you said that to me.

So we will meet up at night if we don't meet in the morning. Its like a fairytale with small interuption in between. There was once i went town alone to head to Taka to have my interview taken. I went to greet your Mom, you once told me that your Mom likes me and i was really happy to hear that. So when i went to look for her, we chatted a lil and she kept smiling at me. After interview, i went to said bye to your mom and off to Tangs and look for you. Saw You and Rashidi at the smoking area, so after Rashidi left, there's only me and You. We spend around 30 minutes with each other, and you took my bangle and i took your watch in exchange so that i will have a reason to come out of my house at night to meet you.

So during the night when Singapore idol top 4's result night. You called me when you are on your way home. You said that there's this girl from Ck tangs likes you. She treated you Cheese cake and you had it inside the storeroom with her. JUST BOTH OF YOU IN THE STOREROOM. You told me that she hugged you. And after that you said that your handphone's battery is low and you will call me when you reached home. After we hang up, i was dumbfounded, i was so heartbroken again.. So you texted after we hung up, you told me that you kissed her on the cheek. You said you wasn't even thinking when you did that. You thought she was me. You apologize and you asked me to forgive you. You claim that you love me alot and you don't want me to leave you. You said "Sorry syg.. I syg you alot... please don't leave me"

And yes i forgave you, i cried that night after we hung up. I tried to forget it but i just simply can't, i really can't. So few days later, you told me that there's this one girl liked you. She called you Cat and you calls her Dog. She even said that Cat & Dog can fall in love together, and you just said "Yeah.. haha" YOU KNOW SOMETHING? YOU ARE LIKE A JERK, SERIOUSLY.

How do i know these? Well he told me every single thing. He updates me everyday when he finishes work. No matter whether is it good or bad stuffs, he will just update me. I love it that he updates me, so that i won't have to find out myself. I was softhearted when he starts to apologize etc etc..

During his birthday, we went to his chalet. You told me to lie to your mom that i am not your girlfriend but bestfriend. I agreed, so when i reached. We left at 8+pm. The next day you asked for a time out. Reason is because you want to relax and enjoy. I disagree with you and you just simply say "Too bad, i want it" You know something? I cried so hard when i saw that.

During the time out you had girlfriend. You even said she is better than me. You even dare to call me and say you will call me back but in the end you will say "Sorry, im otp with Jasmine" Fuck you, why must you do all these?! Can't you please fucking get out of my life? Ain't you sick of hurting me?! Ain't you tired after being a heartbreaker?

So you came back on 6th January 2010. I was overjoyed, seriously. But after that, things was so different. I couldn't call you Sayang. You wouldn't want to meet me. You chose to reply/call me when i am asleep knowing that i won't be able to pick up nor reply you. HOW CLEVER AND IDIOTIC CAN YOU BE? YOU EVEN SAID THAT YOUR MOM HATES ME.

So i asked for break. You even replied "As long as u are hapi..:)" Fuck yourself ayun, seriously. You are one dumb fucking lad without common sense and balls. _|_ So i had a hard time moving on. You complained to people that i am irritating. PEOPLE ALL THINK THAT I AM CLINGING ONTO YOU.

YOU THINK I WANNA LOVE YOU? YOU THINK IM THAT NICE? YOU THINK I AM?!

I told EVERYONE who asked about me and YOU. I SIMPLY TOLD THEM WHAT THE FUCK YOU DID TO ME.

I TOLD BOB, HE WANNA BEAT YOU UP, I STOPPED HIM.
I TOLD MEIMEIKIA, HE GOT SO ANGRY AND HE WANTED TO LOOK FOR YOU.
I TOLD FADHILA, SHE WAS SO FUCKING FED UP WITH YOU.
I TOLD EVERYONE WHO ASKED, ALL OF THEIR REACTIONS ARE THE SAME. WHICH IS... "AYUN IS THAT KIND OF PERSON?"

Yes, i make your name look bad, so what? What are you gonna do? You are the worse ex boyfriend. Although you are nice, but it only lasted for about 3 weeks? I am so blind to fall in love with you. Md hairul, you simply sucks. I hate the new you, i hate everything about you. Thank god i am shifting house so that i won't even have the chance to bump into you.

Fuck those who think he is right to treat me this way, you guys are heartless.
You are not fit to be a guy to treat a girl this way, seriously.

It took me awhile to find the courage to type all this out.
I didn't cried, but i was so hurt by reflecting back.

I won't want to see myself with another guy like you. I'd rather stay single.

Md hairul, i hate you. Please go and fuck yourself and get some commonsense.
AND DON'T LET ME SEE YOU IN SCHOOL PLEASE. PLEASE GO AND DIE.

A man who know how to treat a woman.

Morning people! Im currently msning, twitting, blogging, downloading songs and also facebooking. I just hung up with Michelle, gonna head to Farris's block later'on to meet 'em.

Plan today is to meet Farris and co. Get home by 6.30pm. Then out again to Clark Quay to meet Xiuling Aida & Yuee. Haha great sunday! And im ready for the war tomorrow between me, lynn chua & my fvck up boss _|_ I think i'll get ready for all the shootings from him tomorrow, i just want to get out of the fucking company. NOTHING ELSE! :D

So insyallah tomorrow will be a great day, please please bless me :( Mhmm idk what to wear later on sia, wtf die already >:( I think.... Argh takpe, hahahaha! I feel like buying a dress from CottonOn but i can't spend already, im left with 50$ for this month!!!! Fuck my life. Takpe, i think im gettin my pay? Yeah yeah, im gettin my pay next week! *Kaching-kaching!!*

So i think imma buy later, hahahaha! Alrightos, everyone's out but not me. Im going to get a bath and then head to Southview! I wanna go to CottonOn, geez :/

So gonna head to CottonOn later on yeah, mhmm. Any nice songs to intro? Damn Eugene took my W595 and i got no songs to hear to, he keep asking me for it, stupid asshole.

Nevermind, today je.. Tomorrow cannot okay asshole!!!! You always like to bully me, stupid brother.. Hahaha! Okay la, off to download songs and nk siap!

Okay, im off! Chalo readers!

Move on for a better person.

Alright, shall start blogging aite. Nelson called when i just woke up, he somehow "scolded" me on the phone for crying and staying awake for the whole night last night. After hanging up, he texted me. I was real touch to recieve such encouragements from him although we are ex couples. Thanks eh Ass, meet up soon, i miss you & Fiona alot, hah. :P (Remember my maggie mee hor!!)

Mhmm i went for work late today, cause it was raining, argh i hate rainy days, its freezing and i am wet cause i walked under the rain, damn. So i reached office at 0920am. Did my work which is to update 3 reciept and im done with my work, lolmao -__-"

So after work, left office building with Yingnan & Kk, thanks Yingnan for your umbrella, heh. :P Took 961, headed to Cck by 67. Reached Southview, headed to Farris's block, met Ayie, Alson with Michelle as she fetched me from Southview. Then waited for Farris to come down, then off to Lot1 with Michelle.

Took Lrt, bumped into Farid, then off to KFC. ^^ Then off to Amk hub for Michelle's spect, then off to Lot1 :) Mac, talked to her and i cried. OMGAWD. :( Then off to my block, lepak downstairs.

Then this cute civil defence guy came towards us. And this is our conversation.

Rahmat: Hello *to me
Me: Er hi. *smile
Rahmat: Can i get your number? My sergeant wants it.
Me: Chinese ke malay?
Rahmat: Chinese.
Michelle: How old?
Rahmat: 20+
Me: I don't like old guys, and i don't like chinese guys either.
Rahmat: Oh then malay uh?
Me: I never say *laugh*
Rahmat: Okay la, then nevermind..

Another chinese guy came forward.

Chinese guy: Eh c'mon la, give la. My sergeant wants it, can? Please? *in chinese*
Me: Erh, sorry, i don't go for chinese guys.
Chinese guy: Aiyor, then bobian liao lor, nevermind la.
Rahmat: Then me? I malay.
Me: *smiles* Idk?
Michelle: *look at me and laughed*
Rahmat: Okay la, i go back. Bye.
Michelle & Me: Okay bye.

Then they were like waving to us from the opposite like mad people, lol!! Then Rahmat came over again.

Rahmat: Cannot give uh? *talks to me*
Me: Can't, sorry. I only go for malays. Why not her? *points Michelle*
Michelle: *kanchiong* NONONO! Your sergeant wants her's right?
Me: Wtf..

Group of Civil defence guy was at opposite and pointing at me and waving. I was like "OMG. SCARY MUCH"

So in the end Rahmat asked for my number and yes, i gave! Haha he look like Ayun's uncle, Rashidi. But Rahmat cuter la, lol i think uh? HAHAHA.

So after that Michelle came up to my house, she took a bath and she left. And i had a chat with Xiuling Aida. She managed to make me decide on something very important, regarding my life.

I am born to be happy, not to be sad.
I am born to make the people around me to be proud of me, and not to be sad for me.
I am born to learn from my mistake and be a better person.
I am born to be loved by you, and then move on from you to a better lad.

I chose to love you in silent/public-ly, what i got was.. Nothing.
I chose to wait for you, what i got was... Nothing.
I chose to cry for you, what i got was.. Nothing.
I decided to suffer instead of you, what i got was.. Nothing.
I am letting myself to get hurt even more, not you. Its me all the way.
I wanted to get consoles and hugs from you, i got.. Nothing.

So why am i doing here to make me suffer? Im going to move on, i won't let Aida's tips go down to drain, if she can do it, i can too. Right Aida? Hehe. Thanks so much anyway Woman ;) Hope to see you & Yuee tomorrow aite :p

Okay i think i am very awesome today, although i cried, but i am moving on!! Yay, i know words are cheap, but mine are real priceless okay people... Hahahaha lol!

Okay i am done, chalo!

Not anymore.

Hello hello! Okie dokey, shall start blogging nao. Today i went for work, woke up at 7.31am and yes i am late. Bath, went out. Took 961, and luckily i am not late, haha :P

Reached workplace, did my work. Had canteen's food for lunch, it was delicious, lol i think im far too hungry i guess? Because i skipped last night's dinner :/ After lunch, went back. Did work halfway, i fell asleep lol.

Well all i can say is today is the boringest day i ever had. Urgh, and the time travelled damn slow okay -___-"

So tomorrow is saturday, im working. Sian lo, haiz.. Meeting Vic tomorrow at Town for lunch tomorrow! :D Can't wait to see her.

Anyway i know my post are gettin boring, but i got nothing to blog about it eh.... :/ Last night i had a very very sweet dream, cause i dreamt of me and him patching up!!!

Ohmygod right, in the dream i was so happy till i cried. But when i woke up, then i realized.. Its just a fucking dream, urgh -__- Make me happy for nothing leyz, stupid me stupid dream stupid idiot kanasai. :(

Mhmm, my babygirl as activated her blog back!! Haha do visit her blog alright, her posts are real damn cute but only if she posts regularly la eh, hahaha! So just now i had fun msn-ing with Fiq, Fana & Woodpecker. It's fun disturbing someone, lol!

So yup, i just downloaded a song by Katherine Mcphee, my old time favourite, the song name is "Over It". Go and hear it, its real nice and sad too la, lol. :/ You know me, i am a girl who always get attracted to songs likethat, hahaha!

Okay la, im done. Shall go and get some sleep if not i'm going to be late tomorrow again! Half day tomorrow, then off to Town! :D Can't wait, i realize that i've been hitting town every saturday lol~

I am absolutely numb from all these pain.
When you see me giving up, thats when im really sick of everything.
I want to move on, that's what my mind wants. But when i asked my heart....
She said "No, you still love him" damn.

Hi mr future, please treat me better.

Hi. I am currently feeling down again. But nevermind, i must be strong :') So anyway, today i met Idah @ Tampines :) Headed to have Mac for breakfast, then off to Bouna Vista. Took 198 and headed to Dover ITE.

Then after that, i went to Cck and meet Michelle. Met Yimling, Fakh & Michelle, then off to buy birthday cake for Farris. Then took 307 (i think uh) and headed to Michelle's block nearby.

Salam everyone, sang birthday cake, cut cake, sabo. Asked Suhaimi to lend me his Shirt and Shorts as im wearing dress, mcm awkward kan, everyone wearing casual, only me wear dress. Even Akif said "Eh you go where sia?" Lol! Thanks Suhaimi anyway! ;)

Met billyfiq there, said hi and off to Sunshine for CS! Then went to Sunshine, waited for the lanshop to have space for us, while waiting, we were playing afool outside the shop. Stupid Ayie kept disturbing me. And Fakh too! He kept hitting me with Farris's present. And when i said "Eh, don't kurang aja okay!!" Then he and Ayie laughed when i said that, dumbshit! -__-"

So i met a new friend there, he look like Izad!! ^_^ And he is from Clementi ITE too, haha cool cool!! And i asked him this.

Me: What course are you from?
Him: Leisure and Travel.
Me: Huh?! Legend and treasure?!! Got this kind of course?
Yimling : *laugh* Stupid!!!
Him: Leisure and Travel la!
Me: Oh? HAHAHAHA sorry!!
Him: You Clementi meh? Why i never see you?
Me: Cause i only go school on every Tuesday je. That's why!
Him: Oh cool, eh wait, i think i see you before.
Me: *thinking : mcm fhm sia* Really?
Him: You wear white polo and pants?!
Me: NO WAY! NO PANTS!! *laugh*
Him: Oh! Maroon polo and skirt?
Me: Haha ya.

Dumb right, i know la, Legend and Treasure.. HAHAHAHA. So we went to block 427 for Soccer. Get to know from Ayie that Hazmi stay near there, haha kinda got excited i don't know why, wondering how is he anyway? Farris fell down, mcm nk step boleh jump over the seat, and he end up slipping down, damn bloody funny, but cute sikit lah, hahaha! Basically everyone was laughing at him, roflmao~ Mhmm.. Left around 7.20pm, took 300. Headed to Toilet as i want to urine so badly (Michelle & Yimling know why) HAHAHAHA.

So i changed, and headed home. Took lrt, then sat below my block alone, nearly cried when i was alone, dumb -,-" So i quickly went back home, bath, online.

Msned with Fadhila, Safiah, Fana, Billyfiq & Aryna. Thanks to all of you, especially Billyfiq & Fadhila Fadoila!! :D

Ok i am done, not really in the mood to post anything interesting, so yeah. Anw tomorrow is friday.

Bye.

So what if i loves you? Do you care?..
I am still trying to move on from you, no matter what, i will continue to try.
All i know is, i love you alot. Sigh, im such a stupid fool.

I miss you terribly.

Okay hello readers. Im here to blog about today like duh. Woke up at 7.19am, bath, make up-ed, went out. Rush for the lrt cause i am late already. Reached Bukit Panjang, walked in my fastest speed, managed to board the 8am 961! *Phew* lol

Board already, there's this one fat auntie pushed me! Fuck fat ladies. And she wanted to sit but hahaha there's this uncle sat on it, i wanted to laugh but can't uh, must maintain, hahaha! But i hate her stomach and her buttock sia. Keep pushing me, i feel like using a needle and poke it till it burst sia! Then she end up sitting beside me, urgh. -.-

And there's this 1 fat lady, muke mcm nk sepak! She was chewing on bubble gum and she mcm nk action by blowing the bubble and there will be a sound like "pop". And everyone will look at her. So when i heard that, i looked at her, and muke die satsat siol! Wtf, bubblegum only, muke takya satsat perh.... Stupid fatso. -.- LOL.

Okok, i better stop being so mean towards fat ladies, cause i don't wanna be fat. I am trying to slim down, my aim is to be standing at 165am, 50kg. LOL. I think i cannot make it, im only 160 and 55kg -.- Cb, gemok siaa :-( Shall start skipping meals!

So had lunch at Central ; some korean resturant. Decided to try to transfer company as i don't like my current company's boss, nk abuse rights to ask about our privacy life. He even said that i was late for work cause i meet boyfriend, padehal i single and when he said that i was like "Cb. I know la, i single, don't need to say that to hurt me kan? Ccb..." From that day onwards, i seriously hate him like one bloody fuck.... _1_

So anyway, i called Viv to help me by asking her boss whether can i join her company, her boss asked to go for interview!! Haha so happy!! Insyallah i get hired and hooray! I can transfer company!!!! :D :D

Didn't did much work, was busying seperating invoices, and picking up calls on behalf of Venu :P So lemme tell you all this, confirm you all laugh (ok la, if you guys know how i talk in real life la eh, lol)

Me: Hello, Mircobits.
Customer: Hello, may i speak to Annie?
Me: Annie is not in the office.
Customer: Oh how about Frediezel?
Me: Yes she is, takecare. (suppose to say hold on)
Customer: Ok.
Me: *think back* Eh nono, i mean hold on *laughing*
Customer: Oh ok. *laugh*

Then i transfered the call already, i laugh and laugh, the whole department that im working at was like laughing and everyone was looking at us, wtf sia, paisey sia. lol!! Okay i admit, i wasn't concentrating :/

End work at 6pm, took 961. Reach Bp, took Lrt, walk home. Reach home, bath online. There's this one angmoh eh, name die Ziggy. He started to chat with me on fb.. And this is how it goes..

Ziggy: Have you ever had sex?
Me: NO!
Ziggy: Are you saving it?
Me: Err? Idk? (Seriously, i am speechless...)
*close convo*

He is kinda scary, firstly he said he wanna fly to Singapore and look for me. And he said he want me to be his girlfriend. Thirdly, he said he want me to kiss me. NOW HE ASK ABOUT MY VIRGINITY. Cb, what's next dude?... Urgh, i feel so bloody disgusted. :S

I can't make myself to concentrate on my work today.
I can't make myself to stop thinking about it.
I can't make myself to be happy cause i am not happy enough to be.
I can't make myself to be sad cause i am not sad enough to be.
I started to realize.. I am such a fool, i don't know what to do..

Hopes crashed, i am moving on.

Yes i read your blog, so you are trying to say i am not understanding enough? Great, thanks. If i am not understanding enough, i won't forgive you over the Johnny thing. You actually used vulgarities on your blog, i perangai mcm dog abis?

Okay now i know lah hor, people do fucking change, you said i changed into a better person while you are not. I wasn't convinced, but now i am absolutely convinced. I am changed into a better person to not get angry so easily. How about you? You are indeed changed, you actually used vulgarities on me, how the heck do i know you need time alone?

Nevermind, try you? Eh nabeh, you should try me lah hor, pcb. I rarely get so angry ever since i changed. Fuck you, you think you very daisai by posting? Pcb, you see, you go and find another sister that will be like me, you go and find. I guarantee you cannot find another one like me. Just you see lah, ask me to try you? Fuck off and get a life.

If you wanna kao my jiaowei to anyone, go ahead, i won't stop you. Go and tell everyone how weak am i in my love life, go and tell everyone how am i like. I won't fucking stop you, i only said i was disappointed, tak ya post mcm gini peh, you remember this day, sisters? NO MORE. YOU SEE THIS. NO MORE SISTERSHIP BETWEEN US.

*I rarely get so angry, and i am seriously fucked up, i guess this anger won't be fading.

Me today very happy, haheho!!!!

Hello readers! Its a terrific tuesday today!! Well not totally but can say its terrific lah, hehez. :P So shall start talking about today aye :P

Woke up at 6.45am, ironed my skirt, bath, went out at 7.30am. Took 963, texted Vivien, even told her to get ready to be late! She said "Won't, i will be early, just you see" Guess what, she is late!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA :p

Met her at the traffic light, went to KFC. Uhuh, skipped EFC lesson, met Idah & Dayah at school bustop, walked in. Went to idk what room, then went for CS lesson. Mrs Tan was not feeling well so she let us out for early lunch!! :D :D

So went out of school, my mood was spoilt when we were crossing the road. Wanted to walk there so that i won't have to cross the road, but the rest pulled me and they malas nk walk. So we crossed, and my heart went from (U) to (U) x20. Urgh x_x

Took 105, went to Mac. Didn't want to eat but Zirah look at me and said "EAT!" sia la, mater die mcm nk pop out sia lol!!! So i bobian, i eat. Then went to walk around @ Clementi. Then bus 52 back.

Went for self revision, took pictures (on my facebook) Went to the printing room for papers, then walk back. While walking back, my mood literally went up to the highest point and i was god damn fucking happy!!! Omg, i was fucking shocked anyway, hehe and i kept laughing and smiling to myself when we are on our way back to meet up with the rest. Anw Idah was with me and she was like "Omg?!!!" when he said bye to me, hahahah! Omg today is the best tuesday ever, i loike!!!!

Then off to idk room and had our test! Had CS & OSA test. I swear.... Im going to flunk it. So anyway, after that we went back. Talked to Mrs Seetoh regarding the claim matters, and i nearly spilled out something that can really land me in deep shit. LOL!!

Me : Your daug... Er nothing.
The rest started laughing like crazy people.
Azira's fav teacher : Oh you mean Debbie is Mrs Seetoh's daughter? The fat fat de ah? *shows fat people by his arms*
*All of us laughed*

Okay, you guys won't get what am i saying, but seriously, its fucking funny lol. Well its better than saying Kingkong okay.... HAHAHA whatever :p

So after that, walked to Clementi. Went to Ljs, met Idah's boyfriend that sombong dude. Haha but he is nice to talk with la, tapi mcm malas + malu sikit, hahaha!! Last long love!!

Then took mrt and lrt home. Bath, online! ^^

If you were to see this today, i want to tell you, today is the best tuesday ever since school started. I appreciate much for you making my day, thanks so much! See you till when i sees you alright.

Mhmm anyway i really love today alot, and im sorry to Aslina for buey-ing your tomorrow. Im so sorrrrrry dear!! :-( Owe you a movie date alright darl! ^^

Im working tomorrow, yay? Meh need to wake up early again -.-" Haizzzzzzzz so boring..
Moving and packing stuffs in 2 weeks time, can't wait to move in!!! Deciding who to invite to my new house :P

AND RENA SAW MY PHOTOSHOOT'S PHOTO ALREADY. BUT I HAVEN'T. :-(
FARRIS IMAN...... WHY YOUR USB SO LOUSY ONE :-(
I WANT MY PHOTOSHOOTS PHOTO A.S.A.P :-(
STUPID TIKOS! HAHAHAHA!

In conclusion, im real happy today, i appreciate it alot, may i know why you did that?
I miss you calling my name anyway :') I miss you alot too. More than you can imagine.
If i can, i'll go and hug you and never let go. If i can have the chance of having you back by my side, i'll appreciate you and learn to be a better girl of yours. But you know something, its all if. Haha i am so dumb -,-"

STOP DREAMING EMILY!!! GOODNIGHT! GOTTA CALL MY MAK NONOK ^^ HEHE.

Unlucky feeling is within me

"Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you."

So is it true? I've dreamt about you, not twice but alot of times. I asked my mom why do i dream about a person for so many times, almost everyday. She says i've been thinking about that person every minute, but trust me, i don't do that. I forced myself to keep myself occupied and i don't even have the time to think of you. (Well sometimes i do and end up tearing.) Different dreams, different scenario.

There's fights between us, there's reconcile between us. There's sparks between us. Its all in the dreams. I cried in every dreams, every scenario, because i know you are no longer with me. Reconcile, i was crying so hard when i woke up, i know its a dream, its not reality.

I start to realize, i really need you badly. I miss you very much, i want you to care for me one more time, i miss how are we like when we are together. I miss how we started having feelings for each other when we are hanging out almost everyday ever since i turned single. Those days was the best, you treated me like a princess..

I am not a desperate girl, i am still the Emily who loves you like how she does last time. Its been 2 months since we broke up, i guess you've moved on from me. Do you know that i miss you terribly, i look forward to every tuesday as i'll see you, but i am so afraid of getting my heart broken into much more small pieces.

Pardon me for my weakness, i just miss you alot and i don't see why am i having difficulties moving on from you because i can easily move on from my previous ex although i have difficulties too. My dear boy, what's wrong with me? Do you know why?

Everytime when i go online, i'll be signing into Facebook first, type your name on the search box, view your profile then i'll be doing my stuffs after that..

I've got no more strength and faith to carry on. I just want you to know, i still love you..

Please say that you misses me.

i love you

Okay hi. I am currently feeling down like again. Wondering when will all these sadness go away from me. I hate the feeling of being sad... >:(

So i woke up at 7.41am, yes i am late already, i should be out at by 7.30am. So i chiong to the bathroom, bath for 5 minutes (the fastest ever lol) I went out at 7.55am. And today i never put make up then go out already, ugly to the max lol. What a great way to start the week. -,-"

Took Lrt, then 961. Fucking 961 take so long to come! I was gettin more and more impatient, wanted to flag for a cab and just go for work! But when i wanted to, 961 appeared, sibeh angry x_x"

Board already, got 2 fucking fat lady squeezed me, nabeh. I feel like pushing them, well i tried and guess what?!!! I FAILED! Fuck fat ladies, cb! I hate fat ladies, and i swear i don't want to be 50kg and above! _1_ So there's once i jeleng at one of the fat lady, then she stare at me siol, then she wanted to sit down at 1 empty seat, and guess what? I sat on it before she does! Nyahahahah! I know i am mean but yknow, i hate being squeezed and pushed around. -.-

It took 45 minutes for me to reach E-centre, where my office is located at. Went up to office, again i was the last girl to reach. Lmao~ On my computer, did my usual stuffs ya da ya da~ Lunch time, ate canteen's food again, awful. Lol, went up to office, slept. Then Hooiyee woke me up. Chatted with her & Mylen.

Then went back to my place at 1.15pm. Nothing to do at all, damn boring. Played with Selvie's iTouch again lol. Till 5.45pm, returned her, transfer stuffs from my W959 to E71. Deleted alot of photos, well i felt like crying when i was deleting, because every picture remind me of different scenario. Sucks..

6pm!! Out of office building with Venu, Yingnan & Selvie! :D Went seperate ways, took 961 with Frediezel & Linn. Both of them alighted earlier than me. I alighted at Bpp. Took Lrt to Pending and walk home afterwards. Saw Shehnaz & Amira at Bp's platform before boarding train, i even asked Amira whether is there Drama, and she said "Its march holiday." I was like "Oh ya!!!" Lol dumb me. x_x

Home, bath. Online. Skipped dinner again, yay can slim down! I only ate lunch today lol~

Tomorrow is tuesday, damn fuck -.- Bet with Viv that 8.30am must reach bustop, if late, must belanje KFC meal! I've waited for her last week for 45 minutes, i don't mind waiting tomorrow anyway. ^^v

I hope tomorrow will be a better tuesday, seriously.
Every tuesday is the day when i will always be sad.
Tuesday is the day when i know i have never moved on.
Tomorrow is tuesday, fuck.

I miss A :-(

When i am strong, you pull me down.

Alrights, second post of the day. Gonna head to sleep at 11pm tonight, real shag, my ass hurts since yesterday due to riding of Farris's bicycle with him. And i will go "Ah my ass hurts" and Farris will go "Eh? Sorry ah!" Padehal its not his fault, lol =.=

So yeah, i think got blueblack eh D: Die already, but i still love sitting on the bicycle! Its so shiok, hehe shall get him to tompang me soon :P So fun!! HAHAHA.

I'm feeling kinda low yknow, although i changed the blogskin today.. Sighs, where is my inspiration for being happy?!! :( I don't feel like going to school on Tuesday, when i tries to be strong, i will be sad at the end of the day. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck this.

Can i please fall sick on Tuesday? Please please please let me fall sick on Tuesday. I am sick and tired of every Tuesday's outcome, ever since i started schooling, every Tuesday's outcome is always fucking same. Fuck -.-

I OFFICIALLY HATE TUESDAY :(

I was feeling mutual when im on my way to buy dinner for grandma and myself. As the lift reached level 1, i saw a couple sitting on the bench where me and him always sat on. Well when i saw them, this sad feeling came back to me immediately, i started to think of everything over again, real sucks. When i am on my way back, they are still there, i am seriously heartbroken when i saw that scene. Damn, stupid right me? -.-

Da la, da mcm org pathetic sia aku. FML


Although i hates you, i still sayang you.
I admit im the worse fool in the whole wide world, i admit.
Friends all ask me to hang on and move on strongly, i listened.
But whenever i tries to move on, something regarding you will always pop out!
Not only you, when i tried to move on from Nelson & Hazmi, its the same!
I hate falling in love, everytime when i falls, i take a long time to stand up.

DAMN YOU, MY MOOD IS CURRENTLY = :@ + (U) + :( + :'(

Anw, those tags on my tagbox is making me laugh, super cute!! Haha thanks, you girls make my day although im upset!!!!!!! >:(

First love.

Hello to my readers! Today is Sunday and tomorrow is Monday again. Damn. Sometimes i really feel like quitting my Traineeship course eh, sighs. I hate the way im living now, its like im too young for these, i don't have school holidays, i have to work on 2 saturdays on every month, real sucks yknow. Argh fuck this, should've studied harder and get into the course i want, but like i said should've. Haha so to those who are taking N/O level, jiayou, don't end up like me, its like so useless. :[

Okay shall start talking about other stuffs. I woke up at 9.30am, ate Chicken rice. Bugging mom to get me a camera. And she was like "iTouch, Camera.. What else?" I immediately went "OKOKOK, CAMERA!" Lolmao, heh i am clever :P I hope she will get it for me as i lobang!! :D Okay Mom, if you see this, please buy for me cause tomorrow is your birthday. AHAHAHAHAHA :D

So yeah, after eating, Bro & Yongsheng left for Lion Dance at Woodlands. Only me and Granny at home. So once again Shehnaz decided to not attend the Drama class. So i think i am not going to teman her to attend that class already, because she will go when Claire is there. But Rosie is there and she just want to go when Claire is there. So i've made up my mind, i am not going to attend that class even though i misses acting, but i feel real fucked up when she decided not to attend for the 2nd time.

Wanted to hit town, but didn't managed to jio people out, decided to stay at home till night i suppose, not feeling well too, fuck monthly jinx lolmao.

Victoria Sist & I was checking out some Ahlian's blog, and they were only 12 - 13 year old?!! Hahaha, damn funny! One of them actually posted one picture and she edited with a sentence "Minah Wannabe". When i saw that i jitao laugh like one fuck, seriously that picture cmi, she don't even look like a malay let alone minah. HAHAHAHA! Okay i know im very mean. Another thing is that they were talking about Vagina on their tagbox, they even said "My vagina alot of hair like sushi." What i thought was "SUSHI GOT HAIR?" Funny ttmax, it made my day, esp the Minah Wannabe lol.

Its gonna rain soon, heard from Mom that our new house is half renovated, i can't wait to move in!! Although i have to walk a distance to Pending lrt.. -__- But its okay, hehe! Eh wait, but my new house is near to Ilham's block, and Ilham's block holds memories for me, damn argh (U)

I have no mood already, i don't know why. Anyway this is a picture that we took on Aida's 18th birthday, i took it from her Album 2 :D Look for me! (I look f.ugly inside lol)



Okay im done with my post! Bye!

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Yay, i changed my blogskin at 5.50pm. I used 2 hours on this,re-aligning etc. Its fun and annoying tho, but i loike! Hahaha, okay dinner time!! Shall go and buy dinner for myself and Grandma ^^ Me so happy after changing blogskin, heh. :P

Stupid in love but i am not stupid.

Hello readers! Im currently on msn with Victoria Sist & Afiqah, texting with Ahling Sist & listening to First Love. Mhmm shall start blogging about today aye! :-)

So i woke up at 12pm. (Sibeh shiok, its been 4026539 weeks since i woke up at 12pm!) Woke up, brush teeth, shit eh wait, today i never shit, i urine je. (Hahahah jk.) So i came online, chatted with Victoria Sist, Ahling Sist & Fana Haronkia. So yeah, went to bath. Met Ahling Sist @ Pending!

Met Irene and hugged her!!! Damn i miss her like fuck! I didn't got to see her when i went back to CDSS & finally i got to see her today!!! So hay-pee, nyhahaha :P So met Sist already, walked to withdraw money as Eugene took my last 10$ :(

So after that walked to Plaza, had KFC! Saw a Ex-cdian there, Akid i think? I was Secondary 1 when i get to see him, he was Sec 5 then, lol. So didn't managed to smile cause we only stare at each other, lol so yeah, okay what am i talking?!!! Lolmao. So went to Guardian to buy plaster for Farris.

Went to my block by taking 960. Met Farris & Michelle. Then slacked there, stupid Farris keep making me laugh like one fuck, and i nearly fell down infront of him, stupid kan?!! So Ahling Sist took 963 and left. Farris, Me & Michelle cycled to CDSS. Well i can't ride (If you guys know me well, lol)

So i tompang Farris's bike cause his bike bigger, psl aku da gemok, hahaha!! It was scary, very scary like fuck! I kept screaming and Farris keep saying "Shutup la Emily, shiok sendiri peh? Just relax and have fun" I was like "Fuck you Farris, its scary!!!!" Lol and Michelle was singing to herself when she is riding. And this is me and Farris's conversation while we were on our way to school on the bike:

Farris : Emily, you hear that?
Me : Ape?
Farris : Michelle mcm shiok sendiri sia!
Me : *thinks* What she do? Lol.
Farris : She sing alone and so loud!!!
Me : *hears & concentrate*
Michelle sings louder.
Me & Farris : *LAUGH SO LOUD AND NEARLY LOST BALANCE*
Michelle : *look at us* What?
Farris : Shut up la, sing alone like shiok sendiri!

LOLOLOL CAN'T STOP LAUGHING SERIOUSLY LMAOOOO. Okokokok, control* So yeah, we end up walking in cause im heavy and everyone is tired :/ HAHAHHA. So walk in, waited for Fakh and Rayyan. Took cigg, then off to my block again! Going back was shiiiiiok. The slope down was lagi shiok, i was on Farris's bike and he rode so fast that i screamed! But i love it! So we rode back, i led them and they rode the long way, which is by block 139 that way, ahahahahha! So went to my block, went to buy drink, met Ayie.

Then lepak for awhile and im home! Online straight away! Watching Telephone by Lady Gaga ft Beyonce. I swear that video is super sexy, it should be for 16 and above eh, underage cannot see! Guys see confirm steam siol, okay not confirm lol.

So yeah, i wanna say thanks to Ahling Sist, Victoria Sist & Mantha Sist. Seriously, especially Ahling Sist, from Hougang to Panjang to make sure i am okay, i am very touched. And Mantha Sist, its okay if you can't come down and cheer me up, wuxim jiu okay alright Sist. Andand Victoria Sist!!! Me so happy that both of us are like last time already, hehe :3 Love you ttmax.

Now i know, what is the meaning of "sisters". I am kinda disappointed in You, shall not talk about this, only me, ahling & victoria know about this. Heh. Okay im done!! You guys gotta watch this video!! :-)




AND THIS



HAHAHA BAI! :D

Amazing Sisters Forever ; USB.

First outing was held around last year. Misses them alot! So Ahling is coming down to my area to meet me. So happy!! I totally cheered up when she said she come down to find me to make me happy cause i was very sad for the past few days. So yeah, im happy today, lol i know i am lame.

So yeah, im off to bath~ Chiao! Ahling sist @ Cck alr. Heh!

Where were you last night?

Hello readerz! So i didn't came online last night due to some problems. So i was otp with Shiping Princessey last night! :D Hehe so happy to talk otp with her last night, miss her much! :') Watched chinese movie last night alone, i know, mcm loner. So shall talk about yesterday okay!

Went to Cck to meet Haronkia. Then met Farris outside Cheers. Then off we took Mrt to Yio Chu Kang, had a super long talk with Farris and he is mean as ever, always always disturb me. -.- Mcm nk punch gigi die! AHAHAHAHA. Sooooo we alighted already, took 72 and off to AMK ITE ^^ Reached there, 3 of us da kantoi. Buses are there to fetch them to Dover. Fana nk cabot pon failed! Stupid, should have left school, then her gemok teacher ask her go take bus, somemore fana can say "oh now take bus ah?" nk step blur only, b!tch. HAHAHHA.

So i got no choice... i went to AMK hub alone, i was fucking pissed uh, so i went there. NO SHOPS WERE OPEN! WTF -.- So i sat down alone... Etc etc, skip this, mcm loner, paisey nk post kat sini. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. So finally! They left Dover! So i bus back.

Met Haronkia at bustop, walk in, met Farris and his friends at the foyer. Then off to the studio. And photoshoot starts! Saw Kimiekeai's sister, SiaoChick i think? So yes, photoshoot was fun, stupid farris keep asking me to pose in some weird manners, idiot. LOL! But i had fun la, my 1st photoshoot sia! Heh, gotta ask him to send me (he wanted to send me last night, but i never online..) So hehe, i had fun!!

Went back after 2nd shoot, headed to AMK hub again. Then off to Bpp for my dinner. Then home!

Today, work as usual, saw Yanto and Serhan at Pending this morning. Talk to them then off for work. Had lunch at Central's KFC. Tempted to buy iTouch! :( So yeah, today is a boring working day anywayyyyyyy :( Went home at 6pm.

Currently waiting for Farris and Fadhila to come online! :) Chatting with Vict & Fana. Tagbx chatting with "Adam Lambeard". Tagged commenting with Haikal, he is so cute, hahaha :/ Listening to Who will i run to.

OKAY CHALO! WILL POST MY PHOTOSHOOTS PHOTO AS SOON I GET IT FROM FARRIS!

So anyway, i got something to say. I have this bestfriend whom i knew since we are at 15 of age. We sits beside each other, and she is real sweet AT FIRST. :P But she can be so sick that you wanna run away from her.. HAHAHAHA TAK LA! :P But the reason why am i so sick/open is because of her lah eh :3

She can go gugugaga over guys, and she loves Frank Iero the most. She can go emo when she talks about Frank Iero, reason cause he is married :) I know she may sound cute but yknow.... Its somehow weird. HAHAHAHA. So now she is currently crazy over Adam Lambert. She is like "he is so hot!" She got her photo, videos in her phone and i got irritated when she goes "Adam lambert is so hot sia!!!"

And today is his concert which is held at Universal Studio kan3? She was like "Shit la, tmr adam is coming to singapore and i can't go sia.. Emily im so sad" i was like speechless. LOL I SWEAR. SHE IS CUTE BUT SICK AT THE SAME TIME! LOL!

Okay, she will be reading this.. And yes, i better hope for the best :P HAHAHAHA.

How could you be so heartless..

Hello readers! Well shall start blogging right nao, i don't wanna waste time.

I woke up at 7am today, didn't want to wake up due to the weather, is like very cooling and comfortable to sleep but no choice, have to go for work =.= So woke up, bath. Heavy rain, can't go out -.- So asked mom to drive me to bustop cause she can't send me to my office, damn sad.

So she send me to bustop, took 961. Reached office at 9.30am, i was late and the last to reach LOL. So had lunch at canteen because it was raining heavily still. (Anyway canteen's food sucks.)

Anyway did i told you guys that i am the first staff in year 2010 to get their internet access blocked?!! Well i got blocked by my boss. Damn, i was like "Wtf why block me sial." Urrrrrrrgh, stupid boss!!! No brain, no internet = cannot do work. HAHAHAHA!!! :P

I didn't had much work to do today, kept yawning like one lazy girl. Borrowed Selvie's iTouch, played HotelFanatic. (Y) Fun game, i loiiike!!!! :D So so, went back at 6pm. Took 961 as usual, that smelly and squeezeeeee bus :S

Sat beside a korean (i think) guy. He is kinda cute but i don't like. So he fell asleep, so do i. Haha and guess what!!!!!??? He slept on my shoulder!!! And he is fugging heavy too, i wanted to wake him up but mcm kurang aja, so i didn't. And he slept on my shoulder about 45 minutes?! My hand eventually went numb, and when he woke up, he didn't even bother to say sorry, stupid guy, no manners! Should've woke him up and give him a loud "TSK!" Hahahah!

So reach home, bath, online. Msn with Victoria sist. Meeting Farris tomorrow, i can't wait for tomorrow, and oh, meeting Fana haronkia tomorrow too!!

So i've been feeling real down since last night. Can't get to sleep, but i still did. I didn't ate much, only ate my lunch today. I am hungry, but the sight of food makes me puke. Sigh, i can see the signs of the old emily. Haha great, can slim down already :) So today Fadhila called, nearly cried on the phone, feel so stress out.

Argh, whatever it is, im not gonna fucking care about it. Its always regarding this, fuck. Go and die la heartache virussssssssssssss.

I doubt i can sleep tonight. Damn.. Urgh whatever it is, im done! B.Y.E

Semua Tentang Kita.

Hi readers, im here to update. But first thing first, i lost the battle today. Real disappointed with myself, nevermind, i can do better next week. I hope so lah, i can't give up on forcing myself. :-)

So i went to Subway with Vivien just now, then we took Mrt back. Took lrt back, walked home. Wanted to take the side lift but the lift went up, stupid lift -__- So decided to take the center lift, saw Alan, Brother and Weijie. Talked to them, saw Aidil. Then i was hesitating to whether walk to the center lift or the side's. So said hi to Aidil and Ayun.

Went to lepak. Then left home at 8.30pm. Home, bath. Online. K im done.

I am not really in a good mood cause i didn't got through today. I think i sucks today, im a loser seriously, fucktard is me. I hate this.


I had a hard time to not look at you as much as i can, cause it makes me wanna cry.
Was very happy to see you waving to me in a semagat way although i only smiled to you.
I got no idea to be happy or to be sad. I really don't know.
I am really very happy to be able to see and talk to you.
I am really very sad to know that i never even moved on for 1 inch.
Loser defines me. So yeah, i am a loser.

K bye.

Hey whore, life for you is over.

Hello readers! Im currently in school, Mrs Seetoh's lesson, and i can't believe that today i actually did my work! God damn, haha emily is changed~~~~ Okay shutup, so merepek. So i woke up at 7am reluctantly, i didn't want to go for school yknow, urgh ._.

So i woke up, bath, went out at 7.30am :] Wanted to go to the bustop opposite my block, but come to think of it, better not, haha i know im weird. So i went to Pending's instead, took 963, then the 2nd stop was the stop opposite my block, and guess what, so lucky that i didn't went to that bustop!!! Haha cause He was there, so yes, i feel kinda lucky~ :P

He didn't board the bus too, so i am ultra lucky today!! I didn't met him in school either, hiakkkkkkkkk so heng!! I love today! ^-^ ;laughs. So i reached school, waited for Vivien at the bustop for about 1 hour -__- Damn dulan, wanted to go in school straight away but kesian her, urghhhhhh. So while waiting, there's this fvcking cute chinese guy looking at me, omg sibeh cuteeeeeee i loike* Hahaha! So yeah, he is really cute.

So went to Mrs Lum's lesson, she didn't say anything about being late, so felt kinda *phew* Had to do script writing, but i haven't even touch on it, so god please bless me :-) Hahaha. So after that went to Mrs Tan's lesson. So sleepy, had early dismissal for Lunch. Waited for Aslina outside Co-orp. Then took 106 to Clementi. Had Kfc!

Cabot CS, lepak at some block. Lol so went back school for CSA. Hah like what i said, i did 2 works!!! :D :D

So i think i've reached my this week's goal, but its not even Wednesday, so yeah, don't wanna think so much first :/

Im done with my 1st post of the day, shall blog again at night when i gets home, heh. Okay, bye!

I am really moving on with my own life, Ayun.

The scars that reminds me that the past is real.

Hello, short post for tonight aite. Took 961 home just now, was sleeping all the way, lol. Then took Lrt back. Bumped into Arian inside Lrt, so we walked to my block. Chatted with him, then i went home.

Reached home, bath, online. Fadhila called, talk to her. Farris chatted with me, and damn he make me laugh alone again, lol. So im heading to Amk ITE for Farris's assignment. Haha, heard from Farris that Amk ITE have alot of hot guys, fuh! Mcm best gitu eh, suke suke!!!! Haha wtf jk ;P

So tomorrow is Tuesday, schooling day. Damn, but nevermind, it will not affect me! :D So having lunch with Aslina tomorrow!!! Yay can't wait, got so so so so much things to tell her! :D

So yes, i am disappointed with someone, and i miss someone so much, someone can actually choose to "don't want to layan" my text message, someone who don't mind losing me as a bestfriend. Yes all you guys can say is : Forget sua. Uh-uh, that's what i am doing, i guess im starting to take things not so seriously already! Its a good thing, heh.

To someone: We will talk when we both really cooled down okay, was happy that we didn't fought just now, so yeah, see you when you are online. Takecare okay Friend.

So yes, i got confidence tomorrow will be the first day of school that i will be no affected by you!!! Woohah, i don't know why am i so happy, lol wtf. Okay la, bye amazing people!!

;Mua!! ^-^

Queen of yesterday

Currently at office now, hearing my blogsongs, texting with Wenhui & Calvin. Been yawning for the past 1 hour, damn shag z.z Lol i know i am such a lazy pig, what2do.

So i went to bed at 1am last night, been thinking about alot of stuffs, damn shag i tell you lol.

Had a very very weird dream, a titanic occured in my rice (LOL I KNOW I KNOW, SO DAMN STUPID) And i am in the plate of rice, there's water rushing in and everyone is dead!!! And then he texted me, asking me to meet him if i loves him. So i went (and yes, im out of the rice plate lol) Met him and Syazwan (giant) and we had a talk. He apparently told me that he was attached to Syazwan and i was like "so? do i care? i came cause you want me to. cb" So after that he send me home although i yelled at him to not send me, but he insisted. Reached home, wanted to eat rice. Looking at the rice plate, there's titanic going on and i ate it up. Silly dream i know lol.

So i woke up at 7am, bath, went out at 7.35am. Took 961, lunched at ABC. 1 and 1/2 hour to go!! :P

Okay im done. Tomorrow's tuesday, wtfcb. I HATE TUESDAY.

Hatred in me.

Okay hello! I love the photo that i've posted today, heh. It was taken by Fana using her new phone like of course! :) So yup, today was a fun day, although i got pissed with some people. :/

So yup, headed out to Lot1 to meet Fana at 12pm. When i was at Phoenix station, she texted me asking where am i. Padahal she on the same train as me, haha! So, we talked and alighted at Cck. And then we headed to Kfc to have my breakfast/lunch taken :)

Then we headed to CottonOn, then go Guardian. Then to block i-d-k to lepak. Then changed my nail colour from Pink to Silver Glitter :P I loike my nails, hehehe! Then we lepak till 3+, headed to CottonOn again, lol.

Then to Mac, met cousins, withdraw money, cabbed to Woodlands. Reach already, then left with Mom and brother. Home, online. Ate dinner, bath :)

That's how i spend my sunday, its pretty boring but i had fun somehow, i got no idea why. Anyway i wanna say thanks to those 10 person who "liked" my picture on facebook, heh i like you all too, lmao :P

So tomorrow is Monday, working day!!! I wanna buy a iTouch by myself, i don't careeeee. Anyway, Fana said she will be online at 8pm to send me those pictures, time now is 9.20pm and she isn't online. Damn, she cheat me :-( Haiz, takpe, dh biase la tu, matair 1st place kan, hahahahahahah! Tak la, joking! :P

Sooooooooo yeah, today something really cute but hurtful (to my bro) accident happened when we left Woodlands. Im pretty lazy to blog about it la, haha so yeah, till here aye.

Currently msning with Harith & Michelle. Texting with Fadhila :] So yup, bye!

& i am starting to dislike you, damn. Everything just came back to my mind with this problem occured. Because what happened during the month of november 2009 is in my mind now, look back on your blogger's archives alright.

You even indicated that you have plenty of photos with your boyfriend while me and hazmi doesn't even have 5 pictures. You posted "The Usuals" photo without me in it and you said "This is original, no extra like You".

You spoilt the month of November, the month of my birthday, you somehow broke me and Hazmi up due to the phrase you posted on your blog, you make me feel so down, i was so disappointed in you. And thanks to you, i lost my great friends from The Usuals, i deleted them from Msn, i had such a hard time adapting to moments which make me think of you guys.

How selfish can you be my dear? I have enough, i think this hatred in me will be staying with me till i am ready to let go all the hatred in me. So yeah, like what people say, Life is unfair. You are going through what i am, karma is what i call it.

Hate me? Up to you, im sorry but the memories i had during November 2009 is back. Takecare!

Chalo.

Scars happens when i let my heart open.

Hello readers, short post alright, because im going to Lot1 to meet Fana Haronkia. Hahaha, wtf i can't stop laughing at the "Haronkia". Lmao much. :/

So yeah, today's plan will be going to Woodlands St 16 to have some buffet thingy, and prolly head home after that. I think im going to open a blogshop cause i am going to clear my wardrobe soon!

Woootz, can't wait to move out!! Damn its monday tomorrow? God, meh :(

Okay la, i love my blogsongs so much!! Nyhaha, rock \m/

Chalo! Tag me okay!! ^^

The wait is over, its your turn soon.

So hello readers! Shall start blogging, and anyway im starting to listen to rock songs. Haha my blogsongs are all changed to rock songs, damn cool kan. I am not a rock song fan anyway, but i somehow love this band, i got no idea why too.

So today after work, headed to Vivo alone, and there's really a Tangs inside!!! Damn, lol. Okay its inside story, i shall not talk about that :D So headed to Forever21. Bought a headband there, and headed to Outram Park to meet Mom & Brother.

Reached there, i was at the newest mrt station and not the old one. Damn and i was quarrelling on the phone with my brother and mom over where are we. Lol i swear, i look like a fool. Haha wtf, i fail being a singaporean, i admit okie. :)

So met them at Taxi stand, went to People's Park Complex. Then left for Amk. Chose tiles for our new house's kitchen's floor. Excited about moving into a new house, hek! :P Im so happy!!!! :) Can't wait to move, i hate block 128, the block with the most painful memories, so yeah, i hope block 215 will be better lah, hehe. :-)

So after Amk, headed to Bpp. Had Sushi for dinner, then headed home. 15 minutes later went to Opp Ten Mile to fetch Milo from his grooming session. Met Michelle, Farris & Alson there! So Michelle went in with me to fetch Milo :]

So yup, after that headed home, bath. Online! Going out later again with both brothers and mom to have supper. DAMN I SWEAR, IM GROWING FATTER. DIE ALREADY. 45Kg...... Cmi :(

Nehmind, i can do it, give me 1 years time, i aim to be 50kg at the age of 17. Standing at 160cm. Im 55kg, fucking fat i know, nbcb, lol.

So i was chatting with Nelson like (????) lol. Okay i am lame, on msn with Fana & Harith. Okay la, im done!! Byeeeeee.

Anw, heading to Cityhall tomorrow then to Woodlands. Okay, cool.

Chalo~

Black beads with black thread.

Okay, that's a picture of me and Idah ^^ We call each other love, damn cute i know. Hahaha :P

So yesterday i didn't came online cause i was tired and excited to change my phone. Hwakhwak :P Shall talk about the party that i attended last night at WCP aite.

I went to Amk to meet up with Haronkia. Had lunch at Macdonald's, then off to CottonOn. Bought 1 top, 2 shorts. Bought beads from Rubi. I swear, i spend money like how i drink water. :/ Damn. So after that we mrt to Cck.

Fana took 190 while i cabbed down to WCP. Reached there, apparently there's nobody but only Yuyee who is waiting there. So i joined her, and then more came after that. Finally Xiuling came and she gave me a hug! Lol, so after that i joined them at the pit.

Didn't talked much, cause i was pretty shy with new people, heh. But managed to know some people, like Yuyee, Ricardo, Nisha and i forgot already, lolwtf :( My bad.

Pictures was taken, its with Aida, so after singing birthday cake, photo takings, i left. Took picture, hug with Aida and off to meet Mom. Had Mac.

Went home, bath, changed phone!! Texted with Fadhila and also called her. ;) Slept at 2am and tada, this is how i spend my friday. I think its great, heh.

So today im working, till 1230pm. Might be going town for lunch with Idahlove or Adik Danial aka Muke Masai :P

So if im not going, i will be going home and spend the rest of the day at home! Tomorrow shall hit Cityhall for drama session with Shehnaz baby!!!

Okay, astalavista readers! :)

FUCKYEAHAPPINESS

Today is friday!! Im so happy, lol. Have been laughing in the office since just now, im starting to love working already ^_^ Anddddd, my bus broke down just now, luckily i wasn't late. Haha.

Because of this incident, is the reason why we laughed the most. Lolmao~

Shalini, Venu, Yingnan & Slevie is talking. Mr Lim comes..

Mr Lim: You have a copy?
Me: *look at him and didnt say anything*
Shalini, Venu, Yingnan & Slevie; *ignores Mr Lim*
Mr Lim: Oh don't have ah, okay nevermind.
Me: *Burst out laughing after Mr Lim left*

He is like talking to himself and he answer himself. Lol wtf, all of us laughed after he left lol. Damn, funny boss lolololol :P

So im heading to Aida's party later on :] Gotta shop with Fana before going there.

Oh yah, i'm moving on!!! :D 10 more days to mom's birthday, idk what to buy for her. She got herself a fb account, so i must be caution with my updates etc already, lol!

Okay la, will update tomorrow i guess? Heading town tomorrow with Adik!!! The muke masai one, lololol :P Yay! And going to Cass's crib on sunday for buffet! OH AND DRAMA SESSION TOO!! WOOHOO.

COOOOLIO. YAY I LOVE MY ACTIVITES LOL WTF I AM SO LAME.

I miss hugs from you, terribly.

Hello, 2nd post. Im face with a problem with myself. Argh, having a headache now, i think i am falling sick. Damn. Okay being sick is a good thing too, i've been unwell for like 3 weeks already? Haha great right..? :D

So im working tomorrow, suppose to head to Aida's party but Elysa couldn't make it so im not going either. Shall spend the time roaming around Orchard. Real upset, really but i really want to let go. This feeling sucks hell lottttttttt.

Well, i didn't had my breakfast/dinner today but only Lunch. Not hungry at all, i guess the habit is back to me, which is "i-love-to-skip-meals" habit. Haha i bet im going to slim down again.

Okay, question to myself:

ARE.YOU.READY.TO.MOVE.ON.FROM.AYUN?
fuck.no

Ain't nobody can take over you.

Okay dokey, at work now. Just had lunch with Selvie, KK & Venu at JTC :D Talked to them about my unhappiness at work and i end up laughing with them. Mhmm, i think i talk to them the most in office, roflmao. -__-

So yeah, I am having the urge of quiting Traineeship. But come to think of it, i will face quite a number of problems if i were to quit, damn. But i hate working. Gah, don't like this topic :/

So im currently still updating the reports, fucking bitch pushed everything to me, im super angry, -,-"

Anyway i love my blogsongs, haha k bye.

You have no idea how hard is it for me since 7th January 2010.

Damn, there is a quote saying "if you were to come back, you will be mine forever. "

But when you came back, you lured me to ask for break up.

But even though i asked for a break up, i don't know why am i still loving you.

And you don't seem happier after breaking up, you don't even have a girlfriend.

Damn, can i face the fact? Which is you don't love me

Someone make me happy, thanks. Kbai.

Even flower withers, same goes to our love.

Okay hello second post. Im working tomorrow like yay, i got no idea why do i miss working, silly me :/ Haha, well i miss working, for no reason. Haha, damn what 2 wear tomorrow....

So today was a boring day eh, stay at home, do nothing.... I prefer working, stupid me. Lol, Fadhila's mom invited me to head to Kl and have a 2 days 1 night holiday with them. Excited much, i got no idea whether will my daddy allow, cause he is very protective. But i hope i can la, cause i wanna meet them and esp Hassan :P

Shall bring this up to my Daddy soon, insyallah i can go. ^.^

So mom ordered Pizza Hut!!! Yayyyy, but pizza hut make me think of his brother -,-" Definately not so suey that i will bump into him la right? Hahaha, yeah, okay whatever.

So im going to a drama class on sunday at Claire's company. Cool yeah!! I hope i can see Angmoh there, nyheheheh :P

Woooots, my life is gettin more and more interesting as time pass by!!! Hehe, gotta call Fadhila now, hehe bai readers.

Oh ya, leave a tag before you leaves alright? Hehe, kthxbai. :*

In my heart, you are the sweetest yet heartless man.

Hi earthlings. I didn't went for work today, had some issues and i was unwell. The backbone problem is back again, i hope its still under control if not i have to go for operation to make it straight, cause its crooked. Yes i have a crooked backbone. :/

So im going to stay at home and sit straight all the way. Haha fake, i not so semagat eh! Hazmi use to do this to me "Pat hardly on my back" SIT STRAIGHT!!" Damn i miss him already, haha stupid ex boyfriend! Where you'd go? i miss you so... HAHAHA wtf. I am crazy already.

So i had a dream last night, i dreamt that i was walking alone at town. I walked past a very very very very fat woman, and then there's this one guy behind her came towards me and hugged me. And he molested me, he touched me from up to down. All i did was to shout "Mummy!!!" and "A**n!!!!!!!!!!" I swear, its a nightmare sia, nabehtengteng. And guess who came to my rescue? Haha, actually i forgot who is it, but roughly is some passerby, cause Mummy & A**n ignored me. Veli sad hor. :-(

So i swear, its the worse dream. How can Mummy ignore me, wahpiang :-( Lmao, i swear if i were to tell her my dream, i think she will say im crazy. Lmao! So yeah, whatever. Last night i was on the phone with Fadhila till i fell asleep. Wtf, sorry eh Fadhila. HAHAHA. And this convo between me and her is god damn fucking funny, gonna let you guys know.

Me: Yeah, and i cried on Saturday night..
Fadhila: *in a serious and sad way* Why?
Me: Cause i was watching Titanic, Jack died infront of Rose.
Fadhila: *BURST OUT LAUGHING* What the fuck, i thought what thing sia!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF, LOL! Damn i miss her laughter to much, so so so much!!! She bought me something from Tioman Island, chey, touched lah eh. Haha, i know you will laugh at this. Hek :P

So yup, we talked for 1 and 1/2 hour and we hung up cause im very very sleepy already, sorry baby! So yup, im done with my 1st post, shall go and play games on the net already, maybe habbohotel.com.sg. Tak la, fake!! :P

Thought of meeting up all the sisters on next saturday at town, i miss those days when i hang out with chinese people, haha wtf i sound like a racist. Okay whatever. So tomorrow is Thursday, then Friday!! Its Esther's sist birthday tomorrow! Then its XiulingAida & Elysa Ciner's birthday!

Mhmm cool, i can't wait for Aida's party cause its been a long time since i went to a party, yeah my life is dull ever since January started :/ Haha, gotta make a change about it!

So yeah, i cried this morning, damn fucking stupid i know. I feel so stress about everything suddenly, daaaaaaaaaamn. But luckily Sera, Emma & Fana know how i feel, seriously, although we are apart eh, we are still all in one i know. Not forgetting Fadhila too eh, Bohsia ftw. ;D

I miss Bohsia/FESEF now. Yes, 5 of us. Fadhila, Emma, Sera, Emily, Fana. Jom, jumpe soon, and make sure Fadhila is back la. Hehe!!

I just want to focus on my work and studies now. Not anything else, and that includes you of couse, im so sick and tired of crying already. I always hurt my friends whenever i cries, and i don't want them to be hurt. So yeah, i will be a happy Emily Amelia from now on. Insyallah i can do it!

Can't wait to move out of this fucking block, i hate this block!!
Can't wait to save money and get my phone changed!!

And im not going Thailand already, takde mood pun. So i will be staying in Singapore while the whole family goes to Thailand. :-(

Okay will update at night, bye!

When you start to neglect, we start to get apart.

Okay hello. So today's day is tuesday. Horoscope books always always says that Tuesday is a lucky day for all scorpions. I wish i can fuck that fact cause its so untrue, damn. I am starting to despise tuesday cause i am always sad and heartbroken on every tuesday without failed. Argh, gotta get over this as soon as possible, its killing me and making the people around me fed up :C

So i woke up at 7am and the 1st thing i did was to call Viv up. And like what i expected, she didn't picked up. So 2nd thing i thought was "gotta drag the time till 8am then i head out so that i won't start the day badly." So i dragged myself to the toilet, and bathed. After that, prepared and head out at 7.30 afterall, wtf. -__-

So i took the 2nd 963, reach bustop, met Syifa, Zirah & Idah opposite. Walk in, went to Mrs Lum's lesson, supar boring.. Had test in B6/204. Didn't know where is it till Elysa & Aizat Mok told me, hahaha damn noob. And check check, there's our CS classroom, wtfuck. Hahaha, dumb shit! But thanks Elysa & Aizat Mok anyway!! :-)

So went in, had test taken. It was okok je la, was stucked somewhere cause i don't know what is repetition, closed end question etc etc. So i tikum tikum la! :P I want to pass, but i never study. HAHA what crap sia, lol. So after test, had 1 hour of CS. Then had 1 hour break at Canteen. Damn, and when its about 1pm, i got so bloody scared and i started to tremble. Lol i swear, im like a fool.

So Nazirul came and we talked for awhile. After that they teman me to The Essentials and i walk to the gate myself, Dayah wanted to teman, but i ask her not to, hahaha mcm leceh sia me. Lol! So i walked so fast after salam them, took 963 and felt better. But when the bus passed school, i saw again. Wtf. I thought i won't see today but i did, nabehtengteng.

So i was texting with Elysa when i was on my way to Bpp. Met Shehnaz and had lunch at Kfc. Then catch up, she was pissed G.G Haha laughs, so after that we cabbed to school. Reached school, headed to Ava! Claire and co was greeting us from the top and we were to excited that we ran up, rofl. Hugged Claire! Went in, played games. Zip Zac Boin is so not my game, i almost lost cause apparently everyone is aiming me, damn. Hah, but i don't mind as its only a game :]

So we played the other game but i forgot the name, haha! So we played and played, i forgotten all my sad stuffs, so powerful kan!!!! Told ya, i love drama practices alot! :D :D Hehe, so we took photos, we got to act too!! I miss acting! And Mdm Sal took over Drama and i was kinda envious eh. Cause she is so into it and i feel that those drama students are super lucky, unlike us, we have to plan ourselves eh..... Lol.

So it ended around 5.30pm, walk home with Amira, Farid, Shehnaz and 1 sec one kiddo :D Had so much fun laughing, argh i miss school :-(

I met alot of familiar faces, including my dearest one and only adik aka the stupid-est-always-masai-face zul daniel. He took my bangles and he hit me also. Somemore can complain my bangles small, he is trying to say that my wrist is small, wtf! Bloooooody hell, but takpe. I will revenge one day, just you see stupid!!!! HAHAHHA. No la, love ya adik :P

I met Shikin, Afiqah, Yanna, Shakir, Inia, Michelle, Shaqdah etc etc. Real happy, hugged Chartel, Sam and more. So home, watch tv with brothers, bath. Online!

So my right eye hurts so much now, damn. I don't feel like going for work tomorrow, gah so merepek. If my eye still hurts, im going to see doctor already, fuck got tears come out by itself already leh! D:

Okay la, im on msn with my stupid muke masai adik. Anyway today he make me laugh so much, sucha idiot adik i have, damn. Im going to kill him one day for calling me idiot lol.

I may be sad, i may have not moved on 100%, trust me, i won't cry so easily. I'll bottle it up and cry it out one day at one shot. And prolly, i'll see a better guy coming towards me, handing me the tissue and give me a hug without saying anything and just stay with me till i leaves.

Gotta show you all something, here you go.



Look like who? Ah yes you got it right, the one who sang "One Time" with his friends. Ah ye la, A*** :D

Adik just say my bangles is spoilt and he threw it away, nabeh cb. LOL!!! But he end up saying "no la fake!" damn shit sia, he asshole siaaaaaaaaa. I nk hantam him already!!!!! HAHAHAHA! no la fake!! :P Adik. tag tau.. If not........ :D :D :D HEK HEK HEK.

K la bye!! Gotta call Mak Nonok now. LOL idk why i like to call her Mak Nonok. HAHAHAHAHAHHA BYE!!



Bye.