Unlucky feeling is within me

"Did you know that when people appear in your dreams, it's because that person wants to see you."

So is it true? I've dreamt about you, not twice but alot of times. I asked my mom why do i dream about a person for so many times, almost everyday. She says i've been thinking about that person every minute, but trust me, i don't do that. I forced myself to keep myself occupied and i don't even have the time to think of you. (Well sometimes i do and end up tearing.) Different dreams, different scenario.

There's fights between us, there's reconcile between us. There's sparks between us. Its all in the dreams. I cried in every dreams, every scenario, because i know you are no longer with me. Reconcile, i was crying so hard when i woke up, i know its a dream, its not reality.

I start to realize, i really need you badly. I miss you very much, i want you to care for me one more time, i miss how are we like when we are together. I miss how we started having feelings for each other when we are hanging out almost everyday ever since i turned single. Those days was the best, you treated me like a princess..

I am not a desperate girl, i am still the Emily who loves you like how she does last time. Its been 2 months since we broke up, i guess you've moved on from me. Do you know that i miss you terribly, i look forward to every tuesday as i'll see you, but i am so afraid of getting my heart broken into much more small pieces.

Pardon me for my weakness, i just miss you alot and i don't see why am i having difficulties moving on from you because i can easily move on from my previous ex although i have difficulties too. My dear boy, what's wrong with me? Do you know why?

Everytime when i go online, i'll be signing into Facebook first, type your name on the search box, view your profile then i'll be doing my stuffs after that..

I've got no more strength and faith to carry on. I just want you to know, i still love you..

Please say that you misses me.