In my heart, you are the sweetest yet heartless man.

Hi earthlings. I didn't went for work today, had some issues and i was unwell. The backbone problem is back again, i hope its still under control if not i have to go for operation to make it straight, cause its crooked. Yes i have a crooked backbone. :/

So im going to stay at home and sit straight all the way. Haha fake, i not so semagat eh! Hazmi use to do this to me "Pat hardly on my back" SIT STRAIGHT!!" Damn i miss him already, haha stupid ex boyfriend! Where you'd go? i miss you so... HAHAHA wtf. I am crazy already.

So i had a dream last night, i dreamt that i was walking alone at town. I walked past a very very very very fat woman, and then there's this one guy behind her came towards me and hugged me. And he molested me, he touched me from up to down. All i did was to shout "Mummy!!!" and "A**n!!!!!!!!!!" I swear, its a nightmare sia, nabehtengteng. And guess who came to my rescue? Haha, actually i forgot who is it, but roughly is some passerby, cause Mummy & A**n ignored me. Veli sad hor. :-(

So i swear, its the worse dream. How can Mummy ignore me, wahpiang :-( Lmao, i swear if i were to tell her my dream, i think she will say im crazy. Lmao! So yeah, whatever. Last night i was on the phone with Fadhila till i fell asleep. Wtf, sorry eh Fadhila. HAHAHA. And this convo between me and her is god damn fucking funny, gonna let you guys know.

Me: Yeah, and i cried on Saturday night..
Fadhila: *in a serious and sad way* Why?
Me: Cause i was watching Titanic, Jack died infront of Rose.
Fadhila: *BURST OUT LAUGHING* What the fuck, i thought what thing sia!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF, LOL! Damn i miss her laughter to much, so so so much!!! She bought me something from Tioman Island, chey, touched lah eh. Haha, i know you will laugh at this. Hek :P

So yup, we talked for 1 and 1/2 hour and we hung up cause im very very sleepy already, sorry baby! So yup, im done with my 1st post, shall go and play games on the net already, maybe habbohotel.com.sg. Tak la, fake!! :P

Thought of meeting up all the sisters on next saturday at town, i miss those days when i hang out with chinese people, haha wtf i sound like a racist. Okay whatever. So tomorrow is Thursday, then Friday!! Its Esther's sist birthday tomorrow! Then its XiulingAida & Elysa Ciner's birthday!

Mhmm cool, i can't wait for Aida's party cause its been a long time since i went to a party, yeah my life is dull ever since January started :/ Haha, gotta make a change about it!

So yeah, i cried this morning, damn fucking stupid i know. I feel so stress about everything suddenly, daaaaaaaaaamn. But luckily Sera, Emma & Fana know how i feel, seriously, although we are apart eh, we are still all in one i know. Not forgetting Fadhila too eh, Bohsia ftw. ;D

I miss Bohsia/FESEF now. Yes, 5 of us. Fadhila, Emma, Sera, Emily, Fana. Jom, jumpe soon, and make sure Fadhila is back la. Hehe!!

I just want to focus on my work and studies now. Not anything else, and that includes you of couse, im so sick and tired of crying already. I always hurt my friends whenever i cries, and i don't want them to be hurt. So yeah, i will be a happy Emily Amelia from now on. Insyallah i can do it!

Can't wait to move out of this fucking block, i hate this block!!
Can't wait to save money and get my phone changed!!

And im not going Thailand already, takde mood pun. So i will be staying in Singapore while the whole family goes to Thailand. :-(

Okay will update at night, bye!