We use to be talking on the phone till we are tired.

So hi everyone, i've deleted my 2 previous post as i think its very disturbing, haha okay i know i am very lame. So shall start posting alrightz. :-)

Woke up at 7am, bath, went out. Took Lrt, saw A crossing the road. Took the 2nd 961 as it was full. So 2 963 passed, recieved a text from Eileen saying that she saw me, haha how cute. :-)

So went to work, i was early, i reached 15 minutes before 9am, so rare. :/ So did usual work etc, lunch at Central. Then went home at 6pm. Super shag.

Took 961, stupid china noobs from hwachong doesn't know how to stand properly in the bus, i think they are around 19+ and they are still acting like as tho they are 12 year old. I got pissed off and i made a very loud "tsk" and they kept quiet. If not never ending sia, -__-

So reach home, Justin & Aiyin were at our house, so chat a lil, bath, online. Changed my name to Emily Amelia instead of Emily iEmz. Hahaha, mcm cool eh? Idah love changed it for me, ^^v.

Was very down just now, i've made a very harsh decision, never thought that i will do it or even think of it. Fadhila has instructed me not to make any harsh decisions when she is away, but i don't know why am i so stubborn.

Kinda pissed with guys nowadays, i don't know what to do, malas nk layan lagi, please give me a break. Please!

Im heading to Paragon this saturday. The place where i spend most of my holiday at, peeking at boyfriend while he is serving customers, pick him up for work, teman him for ciggy breaks, talk to him when he is bored. Of course there's bad memories there, but the good memories wins.

I want to put everything behind, i want to let out all my unhappiness, i want to cry all it out. Hannah is going with me, i hope i can really cry my heart out..

I really love you alot Ayun, but i know, you are attached, im stupid to break with you, i admit i do want you back, i know you are single, i know everything. Perhaps, you just don't want to take me back and you don't know how to say it so you just said you are attached as an excuse. I know im not good enough for you, i know very well. All i can say is that i sayang you alot, want me to let go? It can be done, all i need is to just force myself.. I cannot make myself open my heart to anyone.

I am absolutely useless in this, im weak. I miss you & i love you alot.