My love.

Okay, after this post, i guess it will be a sad post ahead. So just 15 minutes before 27th Febuary arrives. I know its really time for me to let go if everything goes as what i expects. We stays near each other, we goes to the same school, we may bump into each other on every tuesdays. You are on my screensaver.

I don't know how to remove/avoid it. The love in me for you is still there, but one day, i'm going get it remove no matter what, even if i have to hurt myself. I always have the urge of texting you, giving you a hug whenever i sees you, but its impossible.

I broke up with you because of your changes, the way you treat me. Not because i found another guy during our time-out. When i broke up with you, i have to act strong, i never even shed a tear infront of anybody. I am really acting strong at the point of time. You apologised, you said you don't deserve my forgiveness.

Who will not forgive the one who they loves the most? Nobody. I always forgave you for what you do, i never bear grudge towards you in me. Right now, i can see that you have already moved on, cause you didn't replied my text message since this morning.

10 more minutes to go. So tomorrow, i really expect myself to expect what i expects and not what is unexpected. Like you know me, i always think negative, i don't think positive. Cause my positive is You, not me. I have low confidence in myself, my life, my everything.

Im not clingy for sure, im just sticking to one. I can't believe that i want you back after everything we've been through. Look at this, i want you back. I guess, its impossible. But i know there's a glimpse of hope, as long as 28th Febuary ain't here yet.

I sayang you alot, i've made the first move. I didn't let the ego in me bring me down, i know its so unusual for a girl to want a guy back in her life. But if its for the one whom i love its worth it. But if you didn't managed to read this post, at least i've tried. And i will learn my lesson.

7 more minutes, and im absoluetly done with this post. Takecare Ayun. I love you much! :-*