I don't want to feel this way for you again.

Currently in school. I doubt i will be blogging tonight. Well. I shall take this chance to blog about today then :)

So today woke up at 7am, bath, chiong, go out. Talk to Ilham for awhile, then took 963 to school. Met _ _ _ _ at the bustop, and we board the same bus too. We were completely strangers, we didn't talked, we only exchanged glance. Its not a good feeling, like seriously.. Skip this, make me sad only wtf...... _1_

So went to Smartroom1, late like usual. :P Then sat the back, Mrs Lum's class, lemme tell ya, i fucking hate her, bias nk mampos sia, fuck her. Lol.

So went for lunch with Aslina, Evangela & her friend. Had KFC!! Took 105 there, and Rizal was inside, shock much. Lol, whatever. Then took 106 back. Wanted to skip like what i did for the past 3 weeks, but i didn't, hiak :p

I passed my 1st test for Customer Service! And i didn't studied for it, i sumpah. Haha and i got 34/50 sey! HAHAHAH okay im lame :p Well, i expect myself to get 5. HAHAHAH, and i have full marks for multiple questions :p Okay la, im like a 7 yr old kiddo bragging her result, wtfuckingshit. Lol -_-

So while we are on the way back to Mrs Tan's lesson after lunch, saw _ _ _ _ again with Aidil.. I swear, i hate myself for that. I don't want it to happen again, i don't want to see myself staring at you anymore.. Please, get out of my life, sight, mind, heart. :(

So yeh, now im having Mrs Seetoh's lesson, well. She is nice but very very very very very naggy. And i have to call her the 4th time then she comes to me, -_- I was disturbing Faris just now thru facebook, hahaha!

I saw Elysa today and i talked to her! And she told me something, and i was... Somehow sad and happy. I don't know, i seriously don't know, i don't wanna go back to those times when i always cry and think about you... :'(

And to you, im sorry for what i said to you, i didn't meant to hurt you, i don't wanna get into relationships/don't wanna love anyone. Im so sorry, please move on alright? Afterall, friends last longer than couples. Do you know that? Im so sorry, but no worries, i will still be there for you, mr hawt. :)

I saw you once, my mind is in a wirl.
When i saw you the 2nd time, im officially sad.
I miss you alot, ah fuck, whats with me?
Why am i like this, i thought i've moved on?
Or was it, when i saw you, the memories are back..
When i fetch you from work.
when i go lunch with you at the staff canteen.
When i went to find you after my interview.
When we lepak underblock everyday before you go for work.
When i hugged you like as if i will lose you.
When you bit my cheek and then laugh at my reaction.
When you kiss me when you are off to work...
When i was loved by you, when when when....
Haiz, please, get out of my life.....