When i love you, i know its gonna be so hard to quit loving you.

So yeah hi everyone, i fucking cried again last night, im such a stupid girl. I cried and cried, till my eyes are tired.

I can feel someone talking to me last night, telling me to love myself first, cause i have been treating myself the worst and i treat the only one in my heart the best. And whatsmore, the only one in my heart doesn't even care.. Sad and disappointed much, seriously.

Alarm rang at 6am, i off it and went back to sleep cause i went to sleep at 2am last night, geez. So woke up at 8.30 and i was fucking mad at myself, so i woke up and went to bath straight away. Then texted Linn and informed her that i'll be late, haha clever me :p Then took 961 as usual, reached office around 10+. So means i have to apply for 1 hour leave, damn -__-

Didn't did much work, just updated the service report only. Took picture with some of them and left for Cck. Missed 961, so waited for around 10 minutes and took the 2nd 961. Then changed to Lrt and reached Cck around 1.43pm.

Waited for Fiona for about 15 mins and we left for KFC :D Saw Raihan, Syafiqah & Izad with his girlfriend. Izad turn hot, lol chey, whatever. Didn't got to talk to anyone of them, lmao. And met Ira Boinboin too! Hugged her as i miss her so damn much! x_x

After having our lunch, headed to Popular. Saw Yoga Lin's album!! God damn, i called mom immediately, asking her to sponsor me the dvd, hehe. And she agreed! And i was grinning all the way, hahaha!! Lol, okay then we headed to the rooftop, watched some performance, well its okay la, but i think one of the female singer spoiled the whole song, right Fiona? :)

Headed to toilet, then after that went home. Took lrt with Fiona, took the Senja line. She alighted at Fajar while i alighted at Pending. :) Reached home, watched the Yoga Lin's dvd! The dvd was great, hehe. I love Yoga to the max, Nelson shall burn me all his songs to me, cause he promise me so :p

So changed, online. Here i am. ;) I took pictures with Fiona today, its on my Facebook, so go and check it out yup ;)

I got no mood today, i got no idea why. You know what sucks? I seriously miss you and seems that nobody likes seeing me loving you. I got no idea what the fuck is wrong with them.

Like what adik wrote on his blog....

"We're in the same boat. You bail out first.
Cuz u can't take it. I pull u back and u all wet.
You hear all the stuff u shouldn't hear, You got hurt inside, its bleeding now..
& i just got a plaster for it

On the other side im crushed
My heart crushed into million pieces scatter to all places
into atoms that u can't even see

Well we got to move on.. we'll keep rowing the boat that we made"

The reason for the bolded sentence is because that was what me and him were talking about last night before he went offline. I have nobody to talk to but only Adik. He is the 2nd guy whom i can tell my problems to, the 1st guy, is no longer there for me.. No longer and he left me hanging there alone.

When people starts to tell me stuffs that i shouldn't be hearing, i starts to tumble and i will have to start all over again, being happy. Its hard, you people ain't in my shoes, you people don't fucking understand me. I seriously hate you people big time, yes each and every one of you, sisters? brothers? bestfriends? mates? members? fuck yourselves people, _1_ this is for you.

You people keep on updating your status, msn pm, saying that "people change" whatever shit. Eh hello, im working, not playing around with new people that i met.

I DIDN'T FUCKING CHANGED, YOU PEOPLE CLAIM THAT I'VE CHANGED, SO OKAY, I WILL CHANGE AND LET YOU SEE WHAT IS CHANGED. OKAY DOKIE?! _1_

@Jelyn, hey hello. Okay will study hard.
@Kathie Kate, added.
@passerby, thanks. And i don't know who are you? What answer? o.O
@Berlina, Im changed.