It won't take long, i just needs time.

Back to post 2. After work, headed to Lot1. Fucking traffic jam, but its okay, i had a great time sleeping in the bus sitting beside one grandma who can't stop crunching on her tibits. How cute, but she make me hungry x_x

So alighted at the usual stop, took train to Cck. Waited for Joshua for about 15 minutes, headed to Mac for dinner. Then off to CottonOn and headed home. Had a great dinner while reading Joshua's script. Haha, i miss drama ):

So got home, bath, online. Not really in the mood, but no worries, no hatred. This is between me and you. Although i have no hatred, but you won't know what will i do next. You want me to move on so badly, people want me to move on so badly, i will show to you what is move on from me.

Till when you see me no longer updating my facebook, tagged, twitter, blog, tagbox, msn.
That is when im moving on, that is when im forcing myself to not interact with people.

Chill people, im not trying to post this to a particular person, its for everyone. Do you know that if i can move on, i'll move on when im with Ayun? Have you ever thought of this? Don't say Yes, say No. Cause you people are always forcing me to move on immediately.. I SERIOUSLY NEED TIME AND CONCERN.

When im with A, i do love him. But not as much as how i love H. I know im selfish and self-centered, but hello. I was so naive that i thought by being with someone, i can forget someone. That is a naive way to do so, instead of forgetting, im falling deeper. And im so wrong, seriously.

A treated me badly, H was sad over what A did to me. H asked me to perservere, i did. A indeed treated me better, but it didn't lasted for long. H told me that in his heart, he loves me, but in his mind, he doesn't. After thinking of what H said, i took 3 weeks to come up with a decision. Is to break with A and go to H.

And when i went back to H, H told me that he don't love me at all. H told me he love somebody and he said he got himself a new life, new love. Ever wondered, how am i going to face this? It was fucking hard, i cried till i can't cry anymore, i lost my appetite completely. So when i asked H to last long, H keep on telling me that he wasn't attached, he even sweared to me.

So just now, H's ex came and talk to me and told me that she was the one who H was attached to. I cried when she told me, but i was thinking, its already the past. But i don't know why am i crying when she told me. I just feel the hurt in me is growing and coming back to me..

So sup people, tell me, how to move on? If you can do so, i applaud for you, but that doesn't mean you are fucking great, till the extend of forcing me to move on immediately.

Please, although i may look strong, happy, firm, inside me im not. The reason why i look happy cause i don't want people to think that H & A are bad eggs. And its also that i don't want my friends to get worried because of me. Im trying, really trying. Nobody knows im trying, seriously, nobody.

Please. Give. Me. Time. Cause. I. Am. Just. A. Ordinary. Girl.

@safiah, thanks for dropping by, ^^
@ Fana. Great, thank god weekends is coming...
@ Jwml,♥, thanks. You stay pretty too. Okay will link you up.