If i were a boy, i'll be a lil not so ego to make it fair for all ladies.

So today i went to work as per normal, decided to not even care for Md Hairul aka Ayun anymore, i cared for him as a friend, he replied "im fine with my new girlfriend". So he is trying to hurt me afterall, too bad i wasn't affected.

Today while working, i got nothing much to do, so i just listened to songs and reminiscence, expecting myself to hate Ayun more. But i end up thinking of Bestfri. And my tears dropped, never thought im so weak, expecting myself to be stronger than before after going through all these shits.

So Huzaifah got sort of mad with me, and i was really blur, i don't know that i can't ask/say it out. He sound mad, annoyed, like seriously.

So i went to meet up Vivien for dinner as usual, then bus back home alone. In the bus, was thinking and asking what exactly do i want, isn't it enough trouble that i gave my friends and people around me? I feel so angry, with myself and i fell asleep, waking up with a ultra fat guy staring at me as if i ate his mom.

So i went back home, bath, online. Did nothing much, i just feel sad.

I can't move on. I can't let go. I can, but i don't want, i am reluctant to.
Im fucking stubborn i know, but how i wish i know why am i like this.
15th is coming up, if we hadn't broke up, it will be our 6th month.
Md Hazmi, saya rindu awak sangat sangat, awak tau tak?

Okay my malay suck to the core. I just want to say, i miss you alot alot. You know?

I miss you calling me bi and then hug me so tightly. :(